I would never trade my amazing friends, my wonderful life, my loving Family for less gray hair or a flatter belly. As I've aged, I've Become kinder to myself, and less critical of myself. I've become my Own friend. I don't chide myself for eating that extra cookie, or for Not making my bed, or for buying that silly cement gecko that I didn't Need, but looks so avante garde on my patio. I am entitled to a treat,
To be messy, to be extravagant.
I have seen too many dear friends leave this world too soon; before They understood the great freedom that comes with aging. Whose business is it if I choose to read or play on the computer until 4 AM and sleep until noon? I will dance with myself to those wonderful Tunes of the 60 &70's, and if I, at the same time, wish to weep over a Lost love ... I will.
I will walk the beach in a swim suit that is stretched over a bulging Body, and will dive into the waves with abandon if I choose to, despite The pitying glances from the jet set. They, too, will get old. I know I am sometimes forgetful. But there again, some of life is just As well forgotten. And I eventually remember the important things.
Sure, over the years my heart has been broken. How can your heart not Break when you lose a loved one, or when a child suffers, or even when somebody's beloved pet gets hit by a car? But broken hearts are what Give us strength and understanding and compassion.
A heart never broken is pristine and sterile and will never know the Joy of being imperfect.
I am so blessed to have lived long enough to have my hair turning gray, And to have my youthful laughs be forever etched into deep grooves on My face. So many have never laughed, and so many have died before their hair could turn silver.
As you get older, it is easier to be positive. You care less about What other people think. I don't question myself any more. I've even Earned the right to be wrong.
So, to answer your question, I like being old. It has set me free. I Like the person I have become. I am not going to live forever, but While I am still here, I will not waste time lamenting what could have Been, or worrying about what will be. And I shall eat dessert every Single day (if I feel like it).
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Amen! I love being older; I've earned the right to be as eccentric as I like, to speak my mind, to tell a young man he's hot (in a grandmotherly way, of course).
I choose not to have dessert, though. I don't ever want to be fat again! And my hair refuses to turn gray, but otherwise, I wouldn't go back to being 20 or 30 again. I love the freedom getting older has earned me.
I think the knowledge we gain as we age is great. So I've put on a few pounds and maybe I'll take them off or maybe I won't. The hair is graying and if I feel like it, I will color it. I've earned the right to sit back and not worry about a little dust. God has blessed me with good health which I'm thankful for.
Jack London wrote: " I'd rather be ashes than dust.I'd rather my spark go out in a burning flame than to be stifled with dry rot.I'd rather be a meteor blazing across the sky than to be a sleepy and lifeless planet. Life is to be lived,not to exist.I shall not waste my days trying to prolong them but will use my time."
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